Reincarnation

Forget Me Nots long forgotten
in a sea of ever eroding memories
I thought I'd live forever in your eyes
Now I can't recall the last time I lived at all

Menial tasks distract and placate, but never prevent
Novocaine is dripping in my heart's I.V.

I am terrified of not wanting
of giving up
of settling

It's never fair to barter crosses for validation
or burdens for contact
but i did

So even after the bumpy terrain
It might still be me leaking oil

What if intention cannot triumph over doubt?

Am I destined to be the hare?
So sure of my inability, that I won't even try to compete?
I refuse!

I appear before myself
conscious and willing
aching and triumphant

Finally ready to be hurt again